Oneslowlover, 68

lonely I want to remember the familliar taste of love. The silent joy in adoration. The way it feels to know each day will be filled with the warmth of that inner smile, as if the suns rays shine right in to my soul. I want to experience that sweet soft kiss, the one that feels like a thousand lightening strikes throughout my body. I want to look into those eyes, the deep penetrating eyes that say " I will not leave you alone to drown in your empty dreams." I want to remember what its like to be valued for my spirit, my warmth, and my kindness. I want to FORGET what its like to be valued for someone elses insatiable need for gratification. I want to feel again that hunger, that incredible need to know all there is to know about the amazing soul beside me. The endless conversation, powerful sweet dialogue that seems to be guided by something far more powerful than I. I want to feel. I want to feel safe to feel. I want to spend every passing moment of my day in a bliss that is only explainable through a deep joy filled sigh at the very thought of you...I am recovering from stroke and filing for disability . so i'm no financial help to anyone , just being honest . i live with my wonderful son and daughter in law , they love me very much and i love them too . i have been through a divorce in the last 2 years . i'm looking for a friend first then maybe more depending on chemistry . it's not easy doing this alone .